Posts Tagged ‘Detrimental Dialogue’

My dad had a saying that he used to tell m,e all the time. Today I was remembering that saying and some thoughts came from the memories. I wrote them here for you to check out. Really short post!!!!

I have spent my lifetime seeking the approval from my dad and being rejected time and again. I simply wanted him to say he loves me and believes in me. I cant help but compare this desire to the desire that Jesus has for us to know him. I want my Dad to know me as Jesus wants us to know and seek him…….I have confused my dad for my Father…..They are in fact different.

Internal gratitude and the feeling to me is like an athlete being in the zone!!~!! Can you describe the feeling? What does it mean to you?

Forgiveness is a word that is often thrown around but seldomly fully practiced. At least in my life I have had difficulty forgiving myself and that is crippling…………….

Every month I head over to pay for STORAGE. What am I storing? That is the million dollar question. I don’t even know what is in there. Every time I go there I leave there flustered and derailed for a moment from my present path…..has this happened to you?

You ever feel like you don’t know who you are? You ever feel like you are trying to be who you think you are but are left feeling empty. Knowing who we are is not an easy task. I don’t believe I do but here are a few thoughts I have had on where to start to look.

It is time for a New Years Resolution. Do you have yours already? I did not. That was until this morning when I was asked to give it a little thought. So here is my New Years Resolution……..

I tried to spell the word alone out of the letters from lonely. It does not work. I realize that there is no alone in lonely. We can be lonely but we are never alone.

The voices are speaking to me again and they are intense. They will not stop talking about that big meeting next week. You know the one that I botched last year. They remind me of the failure and show me the promise of what can be should I not fail at the next one. They are the voices that are focused on the past and the anticipation of the future, the voices that distract me from now.

One year ago was one of the worst days of my life. I was certain that I would allow the memory of that day impact this day for me. It did not. I did not let it as the past is not the present!